Category: Coddiwomple
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Second Time Around
I’m sitting in an airport while writing this. To say I am exhausted is an understatement. At Day 10 of this trip, I didn’t expect to feel this way. I knew the fatigue would set in, but not this feeling of anxiety and worry. I remember feeling this intense purpose while on my first trip.…
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Breathing
I stumbled across a quote yesterday that said “I want somebody to love me.” I immediately thought about Josephine March from Little Women. It’s the scene where she is pacing in the attic of her childhood home, her mother watching. Upon learning that Laurie is accompanying her sister back home, Jo clings to her loneliness…
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Through the Stones
I’ve been preparing, mentally, for this post. A part of me knew it was coming, but I kept putting it off because news of the future became elusive. Besides placing the documentary on my priority list, I realized I was doing it again — putting myself second. I dove head first into a project that…
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Nothing to Prove
Confession time. At first, I bared all in this post. I hammered my fingers into the keyboard, watching sentences form without regard to who they may hurt. So, I took a step back and regrouped. I do wish to share a struggle of mine, but will refrain from stripping away private moments that may bring…
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By a Thread
Recently, I spoke to a Topical Steroid Withdrawal comrade about Dupixent. Two distinct thoughts came up. One, the Sword of Damascus. As someone who loves fables and mythology, I needed refreshing on this story. In a “tale as old as time”, Damocles was an attendee in Dionysius’ court. He looked at all the king’s riches,…
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On the Way Down
At this moment, I am living in a déjà vu. A loading matrix. It hit me on a sunset bike ride this week. While making my first documentary, Preventable, I was crushed inside this suffocating capsule. I was heartbroken, homesick for a place that wasn’t actually home, fighting for my life, and wondering why I…
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After We’re Gone
Most of us watch movies to escape life. The popcorn in our laps, the dim lights fraying reality. It’s a way to pretend the outside world isn’t still swirling on. As the plot unfolds, we cling to these characters. Invested in their wellbeing, their dreams, their adversities, they become our triumphs, our loss. I think…
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Leaning In
Narcissus, in greek mythology, is a god who falls in love with his reflection. Enthralled by his outer beauty, he sits by a bank of water and stares at his face in the water’s reflection, ignoring any hunger or thirst. He eventually dies right there, unable to meet his bodies needs because he was so…
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In Remission
This word, remission, is highly associated with cancer patients. They get to ring a gong and celebrate the absence of their sickness. And after weeks, even months, of being tethered to chemo, hospital beds, and treatment schedules, they are thrust back into the world. Believe it or not, that is petrifying. When all you know…
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The Parting Glass
As I plan out every detail of this upcoming documentary, I can’t help but reminisce about my first trip around the world. There were moments, since the day I published my old Preventable website, where I could feel failure breathing down my neck. I wasn’t raising enough money. I was heartbroken from a sudden separation…