Tag: life
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Not There Anymore
If nothing else, this first week of my post graduate masters in Edinburgh has solidified one thing — I made the right choice. For months, I’ve run through an obscene amount of scenarios in my head. Each one is of myself debating the pros and cons list of moving my entire life to a new…
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Ace of Wands
I’ve barely had time to sit and think this past month, at least not about myself. Between interviews and travels, to notes and organization, to schedule conflicts, cancellations, and plain bad luck, having a moment to just breathe has turned into a luxury. This past week, especially, has felt heavy. I wake up every morning…
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Second Time Around
I’m sitting in an airport while writing this. To say I am exhausted is an understatement. At Day 10 of this trip, I didn’t expect to feel this way. I knew the fatigue would set in, but not this feeling of anxiety and worry. I remember feeling this intense purpose while on my first trip.…
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Breathing
I stumbled across a quote yesterday that said “I want somebody to love me.” I immediately thought about Josephine March from Little Women. It’s the scene where she is pacing in the attic of her childhood home, her mother watching. Upon learning that Laurie is accompanying her sister back home, Jo clings to her loneliness…
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By a Thread
Recently, I spoke to a Topical Steroid Withdrawal comrade about Dupixent. Two distinct thoughts came up. One, the Sword of Damascus. As someone who loves fables and mythology, I needed refreshing on this story. In a “tale as old as time”, Damocles was an attendee in Dionysius’ court. He looked at all the king’s riches,…
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After We’re Gone
Most of us watch movies to escape life. The popcorn in our laps, the dim lights fraying reality. It’s a way to pretend the outside world isn’t still swirling on. As the plot unfolds, we cling to these characters. Invested in their wellbeing, their dreams, their adversities, they become our triumphs, our loss. I think…
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Leaning In
Narcissus, in greek mythology, is a god who falls in love with his reflection. Enthralled by his outer beauty, he sits by a bank of water and stares at his face in the water’s reflection, ignoring any hunger or thirst. He eventually dies right there, unable to meet his bodies needs because he was so…